Get to a counsellor about the suicidal thoughts right away. Your ups and downs could be a brain chemistry issue that is fairly easy to treat (depression, or such). It is just like any other illness - treat it and be healthier - ignore it and you may die. We are here for you, but we are not a substitute for effective medical care. I am glad to hear you know you'll get through this. This too shall pass. But it will come back if you don't treat it, so be good to yourself and be sure to tell a doctor about your ups AND your downs! Good luck with getting out of the Jehobo mind set. It can be done. Hugs!
Happy Harvester
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Some kind of nervous breakdown?
by freedomfighter inhi guys and gals.
i have been disfellowshipped for 2 months now and i feel so alone.i took the red pill and reality has hit me smack in the mouth.
i go through all types of emotions - stronger than i've ever felt before e.g anger,sadness,elation,freedom,feeling super strong,feeling super weak etc.
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What would you have "secretly" brought with you into the New System?
by JH insurely my 600+ mp3 music
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Happy Harvester
a never-ending rabbit habit
all the massage oil I can find
ex-lax
all the Cymbalta I can find
indoor plumbing
plenty of condoms (to protect myself from the endless supply of perfect men)
the entire stock of Kimberly-Clark and Tampax products
P.S. All of Neil Gaiman's stuff, BEFORE he started writing novels . . .
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Do You "Trust" The Police?
by minimus inif the police say such and such a thing, do you tend to automatically believe it?
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only the ones I sleep with
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STONING SCENE from Monty Python's Life of Brian 5
by Magick inhttp://www.youtube.com/v/zneq2utm0nu&rel=1.
i know, i'm probably repeating plenty of threads...but, it bears repeating.
best scene ever!
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Happy Harvester
Jehovah!!!!!
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5thGeneration spanked his awesome pre-teen girls and is proud of it.
by nvrgnbk inmy awesome pre-teen girls are the best kids in the world.
and they were spanked!.
did he do it because he's a fifth-generation jw?.
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Happy Harvester
I remember one time my dad decided to put me in the trunk of the car and drive down the road to shut me up. In the summer. In Louisiana.
What a horrible experience. Your dad and mom must have been desperate all the time to please the elders. I am sorry it happened at your expense.
I don't know if or how to forgive, but if it helps (and it is helping me), a social worker reminded me recently that we all use only the tools we have and make mistakes as parents when we don't know any other ways to handle our own rage/frustration and/or that of our kids.
We can only change ourselves and hopefully forgive ourselves for our own mistakes, use the "new tools" and hope we can help others to find some new tools for parenting, too. Sometimes the only way to help others find the willingness to change is to make new laws, or write a few provocative and/or educational posts.
I don't know how to reach abusers, except to confront it. I find that truly scary, But I do it. It's the most important work of my life.
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New here........
by mrose0202 inim new to your website and im very thankful i have found it.
i was born and raised a witness but managed to get myself out after highschool and havent been back for five or six years.
now that i have a family of my own im totally confused.
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Happy Harvester
Do what moves you, honey, not what others try to make you think ought to move you.
Only you can know, and your moods, attitudes and understanding about the meanings of these various holidays can change over time.
When my daughter was young, I loved to celebrate ALL of the holidays and birthdays. Now it's different. Things change.
The ultra-commercialism, waste and hypocrisy surrounding mass-production and sale of the Xmas holiday can be very off-putting, no matter what, so don't feel bad or judge yourself for feeling turned off. It's what we were trained to do as JWs, after all).
However, on the other hand you might want to try to find the positive aspects of these holiday times and just focus on what appeals to you and allow your hubby to focus on the stuff that appeals to him. Maybe you can negotiate a little division of labor if necessary in that regard?
I hope you find joy and are able to develop your own traditions and remember to maintain your boundaries. It's okay not to love everything your hubby loves.
There are a lot of positive and negative aspects to holiday time.
I think the most important thing about the winter holidays (for me) is nurturing my ability to empathize with others, rather than focusing on the things or relationships I lack. During the past 7 or so years, Thanksgiving and Xmas have been a bit traumatic and/or overwhelming for me, and I'm sure it's that way for many others, too.
No one should be made to feel bad for not getting into the spirit of it. When and if you're ready to "get into it," you will.
Maybe your hubby should come and talk to some of us? Not everyone here is gung-ho about the holidays, and that's okay.
You don't have to explain it all to him alone! That's part of what boards like this are for!
I do hope you have some fun this holiday, and don't feel judged and don't feel the need to explain yourself or your ways.
Just be you!
Hugs and happy holidays, if at all possible!
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I have a serious and I need your help.....
by Faithful-n-Discreet Wife inthis time last year i met the man of my dreams...he was incredibly smart and charming...he was in tune with me...he made me feel like i was the best thing that ever happened to him.
at first he was a little shy...he didn't think anyone of my caliber would even give him a chance...conveniantly though i had my run of bad guys...and wanted someone different.
he was a devout christian...and i had been yearning for years for some direction.
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Happy Harvester
The religious difficulties aside, why would you want to go back to an abusive man?
Because she loves him, or is lonely. I hope you can get some help through a domestic violence shelter and use their counseling services. Please look for this in your local community. They can help you find a better alternative than returning to an abuser who is into a religious cult. Without getting help for yourself and outside support, the chances of having a healthy relationship with this person are near nil. Good luck.
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I finally spoke to my parents. Best thing I did.
by ThomasCovenant inseveral month ago i finally got up the courage to speak to my parents about the reasons i left the borg.
up until then things were brewing up inside me to the point where i thought i would explode in rage.. even though they were aware of the basic reasons they still had no idea about how angry i was.. friday afternoon i started by asking my mother that i would like to arrange a meeting between the 2 of them and my wife and i to discuss the 't'.
i didn't want to get into detail at this stage because it would be unfair on just her without my elder dad being there.
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Happy Harvester
One thing my mother said was ' Do you want me to leave my religion? Is that what you want?' I said it's up to you of course what you want to believe but I just want you to know why I have left. Being their son I felt I had a right to tell them. I said I know it's not easy to say or listen to but that's the way it is.
That's such a great response.
I'm glad you and your wife insisted on putting family first, and insisted that your parents do the same in this situation, not allowing them to procrastinate dealing with family matters by going out in field circus.
Good for you! I hope the weight on your shoulders and anger continues to abate.
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Would anyone like a free Home Bible Study?
by Billy the Ex-Bethelite ini'm still 'in' and have access to certain resources, including 'follow up' slips.
i suggest that anyone 'in' or 'out' help to turn these into 'fool up' slips.
i'll start it small.
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Happy Harvester
I'm not quite sure I understand the point of doing this, unless using a real name and a ficticious address is to send them on a home bible study at the local insane asylum.
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Happy Harvester
Yay! What happened?